11/07/2025 03:45 PM

  Yippe I'm doing website stuff without AI!! I hate AI,
  I always feel so relaint on it. 
  
  I'm a big fat copycat, i keep copying off of my favorite artists
  I didn't write any of this script, just stole and edited it from
  Bowie's webpages. I feel like a horrible person for it. I am. 
  I wish i was more orignal. I'm sorry Bowie, I know how much your 
  art means to you. I'm a stupid thing really, an obesseive fuck who 
  hyperfixates on poeple and tries to become them. I'm sorry your the 
  person i want to be. I'm a horrible person for wanting horrible things 
  to happen to me and to be as mentally ill as u. 
  
  I really hope they never read or come across this. ever. 
  For now I wont make the site public. I'll continue to mess around with Html 
  And figure out how it works and all its fun properites. But i have work soon. 
  I dont want to go but i need the money. I wish i had ciggerttes left. 
  i have to wait now!! 
  I wish i could just make money by sitting in bed all day. 
  
  last paycheck wasnt even $200. 
  
  alright, I'll edit this more later and figure out where to go from there. ughoewhwefoimdj 
  
  
  
 

	11/08/2025 04:56 PM
			
	I love my grandma so much!! we got to go to the mall and she spent a lot of
	money on me but i got a ton of cute clothes and ICP shirts! I feel a little bad
	however she told me she was just happy to spend time with me. I love her sm
			
	I got a haircut. I prefer when my hair is short and cute but the lady buched it and I
	hate it. So i got a hat to cover it up untill it grows back again. 
			
	I need to exerise and take care of myself more, Im getting acne and being lazy. i hate being
	lazy. I still can't find my stuffed bear and i might cry over it. Where could she be? 
			
	I just wanna vomit dump all my thoughts into these blogs, I might. But i switch from topic 
	to topic so fast its insane. I dont wanna work, i dont wanna go to school, i just want to make 
	art and sleep all day. Isolate myself from the world. But I need money and i have to learn how to
	be soical again. And graduate. I dont wanna. 

     

	11/15/2025 03:03 PM

Such a stupid thing to complain about but im going to 
I have scars all over my arms and I hate wearing short
sleeves in public becuase of them. I feel like I'm wearing
a sign that says "Look at me I cut myself!" 
Like an attention seeker. 

Its the eqevlent of the consqences of my own actions. I like 
My scars a lot, I think they look sososo pretty, but i hate when poeple 
see them, I'd cut a lot more if it was soically acceptable. worse when
I have new scars so im stuck in the hoddie jail for weeks. Same with
shorts, but i hate my legs, esspecally my thighs so it dosen't affect
me as much. 

I feel so guilty for not cutting. Like a lazy peice of shit, I used to do it 
all the time and now i just think about it an go to bed. 

wow.